02 July, 2012

The Remembrance of Things Past

Thursday, June 28, 2012, London, England: After class we walked to Hyde Park, and then to the Peter Pan playground in Kensington Gardens.  Matt remembers it with almost mythological vividness, having spent some indelible infant playtimes there.  Claire has no living memory of it herself, but she has overheard more than plenty.  As before the playground is for twelve years and under.  The guy at the gate stopped us and demanded to see our kid.  Claire strolled in to save us, but we couldn't help but notice that she barely qualifies anymore.  Our family has changed so much in the amazingly long time it’s been since last we were here!  


Matt is visibly, overwhelmingly too big for everything.  We told Claire to go play, but she looked like she felt kind of alone.  After a bit we managed to get her circulating some.  Spencer went with, and was clearly, very helpfully encouraging her.  We elderlies were taking note.  It really is a tremendously designed facility, full of lots of engaged kids and pleased parents. 

After exploring the perimeters we got Claire on the pirate ship, and she climbed up that cool mast, and came down kind of philosophically.  Pretty fun, if not quite for her anymore.  Matt was rooting around, and I thought looking a bit forlorn.  Mum told him to get on that ship, even if he was too old and too big.  He did, and went back and forth, reflectively.  Later we moved on.  I asked Matt if he had felt nostaligic, being in that place that he’d so enjoyed so long ago.  I asked if he felt bad about how things change, and how things pass, about how tentative and tenuous everything is.

“No,” he said.  “For the whole time I was just thinking, ‘Man the mizzenmast!’”